I finally got to see Lady Bird this past week. I have been following this film for several months, and it was an incredible experience. The premise of the movie is a teenager finding her place in the world. It sounds typical, but it explores her relationships with other people, and how she is a different person with each. She doesn’t necessarily become mature at the end of the film, but has a better understanding of the people in her life.
This movie really hit home with me. As a teenager, I struggled finding myself. I moved when I was 10 years old. It is the worst time for a kid to change schools. I didn’t know anyone, and I tried my hardest to make friends. I did make some, but I never had that ‘friend’. You know, the kind you meet in kindergarten, and stay best friends until graduation; maybe ‘lucky’ enough to have kids at the same time so they grow up to rinse and repeat. I wanted that, mainly because I felt so alienated for no reason.
I think that’s why I turned to the ‘alternative’ crowd. These bands of misfits fit the stereotype of being losers. I hate to say that, but they fit the bill. They were slackers, and didn’t have any ambition. That didn’t appeal to me. I wanted more than a husband and kids. I didn’t want to be stuck in Kentucky. I didn’t want to go to church every Sunday. I wanted out.
This was about the time I started to feel depression.
I started crying during Lady Bird because I knew how she felt. She was an average student who didn’t fit in, and was constantly overlooked. That was me, and no one understood that. Looking back, if I just had one person who would listen to me, and just be empathetic, I would have fared better. We can rewind time unfortunately, but I can be that voice that says ‘you can survive this’. It may seem horrible and hopeless, but there will be a time where you can control your life a bit more, and make your own decisions. Look forward to those days.